Saturday, May 04, 2013

Retriever: Eli Rubenstein Speaks at Yom Ha Shoah

"I wasn't always a Holocaust survivor. Once upon a time, I was a little girl." - Judy Weisenberg Cohen

"I have been honoured with the stories of
survivors over the years. One man
who was just a young boy in those days
told me about his dog.
He was very smart, this dog, knew many tricks.
All the children loved this dog.

When as a boy he was being moved to the Warsaw ghetto
with his family, an SS officer took his dog
saying it was too smart a dog to live with Jews --

-- they moved several times after that,
ghetto to ghetto, and he missed nothing
more than that dog (the lost homes,
seized businesses, forsaken
bicycles, the wearing
of a star
meant nothing next to the loss
of his best friend)

And one night he awoke to
slobber, a greeting possible
only by one living being, his fine
dog. The dog moved on to his parents'
room, where they marvelled

at his ability to track them
through so many moves and
miles: truly the smartest dog
ever, but they could not keep him.
Barely enough food
for the children.

The boy and his brothers
cried that they would eat
less to feed
the dog.

Until

one day the soldier appeared again.

This dog it seems
is too smart for either of us


And he shot it before their eyes.

Now multiply that pain
that agony
of watching someone beloved die

six million times
over

not six million

as a number

but one.
and then another.
and then another.

until you reach
six

million. And you will

begin to understand the pain

of a survivor."

"Always remember: nobody survived the Holocaust unless somebody else helped them." -Eli Rubenstein

My front row seat



My front row seat

Why didn’t you warn me there was something very wrong with your son? – Kindergarten teacher

In dad’s tie, hair slicked, you stand taller
than fear, take centre stage, shoulder to shoulder
with boys you can name and girls
you may or may not have noticed yet,
eighth grade teacher gives you thumbs up
and voices from our past pile up inside me
the worst case...not able…no reason to believe
…locked room where he’ll be safe
but thin words can’t fill my mind
like your eyes meeting mine,
you wink and say
your first line

Friday, May 03, 2013

100 Strokes

late for school, bags banging feet stomping
and suddenly you stopped your
careful pre-teen primping to brush
my hair

only twelve, and taller than me
already, willowy curves
and curly hair that never
loved a comb

wish mine was straight like yours
and
the grey hairs are the
softest


could have wept but
didn't, for the careful
strokes your father never gave
your sideways kiss before dodging

out the

door



Hermit thrush

Thanks!

Zoo



Zoo

Everyone knows the cheetah can outrun us. But that a peregrine falcon can fly 320 kilometres an hour, fly into the sun, fly until he becomes invisible – I know this because of you.

Smaller than a penny, the hummingbird licks 13 times a second with tongue shaped like a W, taking in its wishes, on wings iridescent as bubbles.

The antelope who stands out is always the one chosen.

A clown fish can change size, change colour, change sex, but it will never fly.

Thirty-two acres a minute, you can’t stop saying, thirty-two acres of that ape’s habitat destroyed, every minute. And you can’t see the rest of the primates for your tears.

 (Confession: This isn't brand new, but I'm been working at it again. I really want to do something with it. The "you" is my autistic son who loves to gather facts, and according to his diagnosis, isn't supposed to have much capacity for empathy.)

Thursday, May 02, 2013

Un collage


I'm making a collage, tearing and piecing
together parts of my life,
wishing to find a pattern that will please.

Choosing my pieces, I come across
the key from a small treasure chest
I inherited from my nanny's daughter.

In there, a collection of awards for 
the athlete I once was; 
a newspaper photo, me, miss Congeniality;

A wee blue silk flower that only reminds me
of the giver's words: you don't deserve it;
Why did I keep it all these years, mom?

Et une lettre from mémère (who knew I was
an artist before I did) asking me please
to build her angel wings pour noël.

The first piece to my collage: a small key
to a box that I will keep locked in a spot
of my bedroom closet, top shelf.

river 2

would you call me
would you
call me

that I could be
silver, the willow,
that I could

forever,
the stream bed,
perfect,

the ice crack
snap, the blue
of break

perfect,
sheer,
glass

mother call
me
mother

I am
yours.

Pray for wonder



Pray for wonder

“Since the imperfect is so hot in us” ~ Wallace Stevens

you’ll find yourself
where all is water and thirst
and thoughts fall like petals into an open palm
as the heart’s coating cracks
and smooth shell gives way to sticky mess
curl up in the nest of memory
heavy as an eagle’s

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

Drinks at Midnight

One day, I know
he will pour me
the sweetest
coolest drink
that will quench
my every thirst.

He gave me a taste
of it once,
and I've craved it
ever since.

But lately
all he's served me
is the same tall glass of
disappointment,
to swallow
one slow sip at a time.

What the spring thaw uncovers

Last year's leaves.
Cigarette butts.
Dog shit.

On the street, a Jack-o-lantern
smashed, its colour faded.

In front of the rooming-house,
a teacup in the grass.

In my garden, wrinkled red
knuckles of rhubarb,

the shovel I lost
in the first November storm.


Intro

It keeps logging me out, I feel like a lumberjack in the desert.

I am just finishing a degree (like I literally handed in my creative thesis 24 hours ago) and I am very burnt out

- but I hope to show up when I can! I know I've posted / feedbacked obsessively in the past, I think my time here will be much more limited this go-round.

Happy writing!!!! And I look forward to sharing even a little bit of this process. This is my....um....fourth year or ??? I don't know. I'm a writer not a mathematician :)

A from SK

The man at the party




the man at the party
lost his house and job and car

the man at the party lost faith

friends said praise God for your son’s cancer
family said take a break now and then

as if there were anywhere to go

the pastor said here’s a beer
the elder said be mad at God

till there was anything else to be

I ask the man at the party
how he and my friend held onto their marriage

we both look down at his ragged nails
we look down to his calloused fingertips

Hello

Hello Everyone! I am also new to the May-Day project and am looking forward to living in this month of poetry with you all.

I am a Winnipeg-based writer and editor, though I'm really just starting out in this thing I hope to turn into a career. Right now I'm in the last month of my mentorship through the Sheldon Oberman Mentorship Program (through the Manitoba Writers' Guild), in which I've been working with Ariel Gordon. We've been working on putting a chapbook together, so I will be contributing poems from that. I'm going to aim for posting one poem per week, and if I end up with more than that, so much the better!

Present

I am here, signed in and accounted for!

This will be my 9th year of doing May Day. I always start with big ambitions so this year I am not going to prognosticate about how many poems I will actually create. I just know I will enjoy the process, the challenge, and most of all reading the words of my fellow poets.

I am now living in beautiful Colorado. It's my home state that I've returned to after 20+ years, so I imagine some of my inspiration will come from the mountains and trees, and thinking about home-comings of various sorts.

Look forward to it!

Polly


River 1

consider the river
consider the great, green vein

consider the opening
of this great land, o mother

o mother, high up in the Rockies
you, deep blue grace, glacier,

waken your sleeping child,
waken your child, river,

again.

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

50



Hello to all my fellow May-Dayers! I look forward, as always, to reading your latest words. And I hope that your inspiration will feed mine. I wasn't at all sure what to offer up to this year's poetry pot until it came to me last night that the last day of May will mark my fifty years here. Well, not here, here...


And so, I will dedicate this month of May as a retrospective on these last 50 years. Hmm...

Monday, April 29, 2013

Where would I be without you May Day???

Another May, my favourite month of the year. Good things always happen to me in May and good words seem to come from our May Day project.

As I write, I'm still in England working on my doctorate. Today, Xegesis, our poetry collective, launched a lovely poetry project called "The Wall of Miracles". We invited poets to write prayers, eulogies, ditties, etc. about the natural world's flora, fauna etc. and we hung the words on a lovely Victorian wall. Poets responded from across NAmerica, the UK and Europe. Some even travelled to see the wall unveiled!  I love working with others, so thank you May Day for welcoming me back!

Sign me up!

Hi all! I'm new to the May Day project. I heard about it last year from Joanne, and looked forward to joining the next round. It turns out I'm going to be at Sage Hill's poetry colloquium May 10-23, so most of my month will be spend on intensive revision rather than new work, but I do hope to post twice a week.

I've met some of you, but for those who don't know me, I've worked part-time as a journalist and copy editor in Winnipeg for 8 years. I've been writing poetry for two years; my mentorship with Meira Cook through the Manitoba Writers' Guild in 2012 really propelled my poetry forward. The collection I'm working on is about parenting children with autism.

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Hello again

It's almost May, and I'm hoping we have a May Day group again this year, however small. I would to post every other day— I have a lot of half-baked ideas waiting to be fleshed out, and want to get going on at least some of those.

Hoping to see some more May Day-ers emerging over the next few days...

Saturday, June 02, 2012

Fare - thee - well

Until we meet again!

Thank you everyone for the kind and insightful feedback. Will use to move forward with the poems. Most importantly for me, in the last stage of the month, made it back into a poetry writing groove. Have scribbled notes from the middle of the night to whip into some kind of shape - will miss having this forum to post the results in, and miss seeing your thought-provoking words.

All the best to each of you beautiful writers!

And thank you Joan for hosting!

xox